On A Mission

Lima Airport

Today I should have returned to Portugal. Right now, I’m sitting in the plane to Columbia.

My life is becoming increasingly surreal since 2016.

I’m on my way to meet the Mamo Major of the Kogi tribe, possibly serving a prophecy.

On the way there, I will have to pass through areas of paramilitary fighting.

My friend Flow, who is also invited, saw himself returning in a vision. I didn’t.

I’m not sure what it means. Either, I won’t come back or I won’t come back as the person I am today.

And although I had some warnings about going there, including from the shaman taking me to Peru, I feel like I need to go there, even if it might be the end of this lifetime.

So today I wrote my testament and gave it to Phara to bring it back to Europe. Strange process…

I think it’s the first time in my life, I have no clue what will happen next, where I will go, where I will live, etc. etc…

This trip is like a blackbox for me.

The only thing I know is: I’m on a mission.

Ahasveros

Medicine Man

Chavin

There was many journies in my life I took to know myself. And then there is this journey to Peru and at the pinnacle of it Chavin de Huántar.

Chavin is one of the oldest temples in the world and the original temple for huachuma medicine. It was the most important temple where medicine men and women would get initiated and eventually so would I.

There are no words that can describe the experience of Chavin. And is was a special honor to go there into ceremony with one of only two people who are allowed to offer ceremonies at the archeological site.

At the holy stone The Lanzón Stela Taitawanka, I was praying for clarity on my path the main message I got was simply to stay true to myself, be myself fully as I am perfectly good as I am and I connected to the ceremony I had on November 17th 2023 when my body became light.

„After so many years of struggling and working on yourself, there is nothing more you need to do, you just need to be… be yourself fully… be(come) a sun!“

At last I became a medicine man, a shaman, a magician ✌🏽

Ahasveros

The Invitation

Pisac – Sacred Valley – Peru

Words cannot describe what I am experiencing on this journey.

The first week was the preparation for the first ceremony.

During the first part of the initiation with the sacred cactus, we went through a magical forest up a hill towards a place called El Paradiso.

My prayers and intentions were to see fully and clearly everything as multiple psychics told me I am capable of.

After the first cup in the forest I sat eventually naked in a creek to cleanse myself in the freezing cold water, while roaring like a wildcat.

The shaman asked what my intention was for the second cup.

“I want to see fully!”

“That’s too general, hermano. Wenn needs to happen specifically?”

I think for a moment.

“I’m asking for forgiveness from the mother of my child, since I have hurt her deeply.”

He looks at me, fills half of my cup and says: “You only get half a cup, you’ve already gone through that process.”

After the second cup we arrived at El Paradiso – a place that truly looks like paradise garden. I went to the other side of the garden to a spot that looked like a stone altar and did a prayer there asking one more time for forgiveness of the mother of my child, asking for Panchamama to gift me people that truly inspire and fulfill me, asking for strength for the path ahead… potentially being part of the Kogi prophecy… the war between darkness and light…

And then, I got naked, cleansing myself in the freezing water of the stream again, hyperventilating… eventually joining the group around the fire, letting my head fall in the lap of the wise old Sophia.

“A king is born!” she said…

“You have big plans”…

I nod…

“Make sure you don’t become vain! But you are ready now.”

Later, at the fire, when everyone shared their prayer, I ask permission to speak in Farsi.

“Sacred fire, I ask permission to pray:

I’m calling in Baba Tshangiz, grandfather, the great general, I am your grandson, your heir, I ask for your power, your charisma and the power of your linage for my path ahead. I will truly need your power and I will honor you and our linage.

I am calling Mamani Fahteme, my wise grandmother, I ask you for forgiveness for all my ill deeds in this lifetime…

Please forgive me.

I truly need your wisdom and intuition and the wisdom and intuition of your linage on my path ahead.

My dear grandparents, please give me the power, charisma, wisdom and intuition, as I want to dedicate my life to the prophecy of the Kogi and serve…

Khashayar, shah zadeh, darvish

Ya hagh”

I feel the prayer in is whole body and energy field. As do my brothers and sisters present.

The next day I record a message for the Mamo Major of the Kogi tribe. The Mamo Major is the spiritual leader of the Kogi Tribe, 138 years old and kinda the Dalai Lama of the shamanic world. Apparently, he is the most powerful oracle and psychic in the world. My activator, Tien, is with him at the moment, as the project we are working on was recognized by the Kogi as part of their prophecy of saving the planet.

Sounds crazy, I know…

Tien also wanted me to meet the Mamo for my cleasing and spiritual growth asking me to record a message to him, as he barely works with foreigners.

A few days later, I haven’t gotten a message yet and I enter a sweatlogde with the intention of asking for forgiveness for all my wrongdoings, throughout all dimensions and lifetimes and all wrongdoings of my linages.

It was the most challenging sweatloadge I’ve ever been in. Quite and intention to get all the shit of all lifetimes, dimensions and linages out of my system with only one sweatlodge…

I felt like I’m dying!

Coming out, I got a message by Tien which he sent during the pinnacle of the sweatlodge:

“Mamo said you can come”

🙏🏽

Kambo XXXII

Sacred Valley

Five days ago I arrived in Peru for my initiation journey becoming a medicine man.

I carried a lot of weight on my shoulders from the previous weeks where – once again in my life – I sensed danger in delay – and warned my tribe what eventually a shaman would call out to be black magic being applied on our tribe, And eventually I got demonized for seeing and expressing what has been going on. Been there, done that…

It was a rough month for me yet very insightful. The medicine man, Tien, who facilitated my illumination process explained to me that I am clear-sentient and that I got psychic attacks by a black magic shaman called Izaka. The whole process was a test for me to level up.

Yesterday my Kambo medicine man – who I do the journey with to the Andes – facilitated a Kambo ceremony. I told him about what happened.

„Brother, your purge was very yellow! Very deep shit came out!“

Gratitude to the brother. I feel like I’ve finally arrived in the here and now again.

The next three weeks will be intense. Already we have done a lot of rituals for our initiation.

Today I will learn how to produce my own hape.

On the May 5th I will get initiated in the heart medicine in Chavín de Huántar – the most sacred site for this medicine where it has been applied already more then 3500 years ago.

Getting the opportunity to get initiated there is a great honour as only few people get ceremonial access to the archaeological site.

It’s like being ordained a priest in the Vatican… actually going beyond that…

Ahasveros

The Emerald King

Al Gharb

Let me tell you my untold story of Boom Festival 2023:

I tried to arrive at the festival at the earliest possible time – at 6 am when they opened the gates – as I was told that the good spots at the artist camp are quickly taken.

I arrived at eleven…

The only spot in the shade left was next to a camper van – having to stick right next to it.

I asked the lady sitting in it if it was okay if I put my tent right next to her van.

“Yes, sure!”

Later that day, I realized that she was the only person to have a camper van in the artist camp 🤷🏽‍♂️

The next day, I understood why… once I met her with her entourage…

Lex Empress…

Transdimensional being, psychic… and the voice of Boom Festival.

Apart from being the voice of Boom, she sings soulsongs… a song she channels for you…

Ok, I’ll try 😉

Fast-forward: Before my awakening ceremony in November, the Shaman said, I heal with my voice, my words and my hands. So, searching for someone to potentially help me with further developing my voice I remembered Lex offering desert retreats.

So, a month ago, I checked the internet… ah… the next retreat fits right in between my trip to Vienna, where I set the foundation for the rest of my life, and my dad’s 75th birthday.

So then… I went to the desert…

On the first afternoon of the retreat, Lex channeled my second soul song… mentioning an emerald at the core of my work.

That made me remember what another psychic said, whom I had consulted two years ago. She said that in another dimension, I used to be a king and a seer who had an emerald that gave him the power to see – being clairvoyant. She continued to say that my purpose is to be a seer.

That night, I told Lex about the story of the king, who was clairvoyant through the emerald.

“That’s your purpose, my love.”

🙏🏽

The desert was a profound experience. Old patterns came up, and I also kept distracting myself. Yet, something happened on a deeper level.

Soulsong… it’s your individual medicine song, full of codes and hints for your healing, growth and life…

At the end of the retreat, I received my final soulsong.

Lex explained that what I might experience now is the last resistance before fully surrendering.

And then she revealed to me, that us meeting at Boom was no coincidence.

And then the empress said she sees who I really am…

The Emerald King…

Shams-e Al-Gharb

Up in the sky

When my mum asked me recently how I’m doing, I told her:

My state of consciousness is paradise!

9 1/2 weeks ago my inner sun rose and my body became golden light…

Since, I live in a state of pure bliss 🙏🏽

The shaman said, I’m “activated”…

My Adveita teacher calls it “kundalini awakening”…

The Sufi master calls it the first stage of “enlightenment”…

Whatever it is, I have no fears, no more…

No daubt…

Being fully in trust that what unfolds is divinely planned…

And beautiful things do unfold ☺️

In-between, I believed the bliss was gone as I fell into old patterns again…

One visit to the sauna, sweating out the shit, combined with a prayer… and I was back on track just ready for the New Year’s ceremony…

The New Year’s ceremony… full on bliss…

I have finally arrived to what my soul always sought for but I consciously never new…

My morning practice… it’s not just mere exercises no more… it’s a full healing ritual…

And also, I co-initiated a new tribe… starting with a new type of ceremonies…

It blew all of us away…

I learned how to activate myself with my voice…

And also activate others…

One of my friends even said that my voice activated her kundalini awakening 😮

Momo and me… we consider to found a new community…

While my Shamanic Schlemmer Train Lausbub brother Flow offered me to live on his land…

But first, I’m going back to Vienna…

Taking care of things…

THE trip, that marks the transition to the rest of my life…

From there I will go to the desert of Sinai to get initiated by Lexx Goddess…

Then I go to the Costa del Sol for meeting my family to celebrate my dad’s 75th birthday…

And finally going back to the Algarve, where I get prepared for my initiation at the ancient temple of Chavín de Huántar.

And I really look forward to meet so many beautiful souls again… back home…

Doing ceremonies…

Celebrating life…

Celebrating being alive…

Going back to where my sun is rising…

Where I truly am…

I am

Shams-e Al-Gharb

Innocence

Vienna

At the pinnacle of my resurrection…

The rising of my inner sun…

Becoming one with the sun…

Becoming one with the infinite soul…

I saw the mother of our sun…

I felt the beauty of her soul’s purity…

In the bright light of the sun the truth of her innocence unveiled to me 🌞

The conception of our sun, was no mere accident, but a destined chapter written in the stars ✨

Her innocence let my soul choose her for my firstborn 👼🏼

Her.. the one, who initially deemed a mis-take by her creator…

Even he knew, when she faced the light of the earth, that she was innocent…

That she was his sun…

She was the one…

My goddess of love, light and life…

The one my soul chose…

For years she tried to convince me that she was a mis-take…

A monster…

Almost succeeding…

Almost…

Almost breaking me…

Striking me in a way only the mother of one’s child can…

Deeply…

Profoundly…

Altering my being…

Lying wounded on Gaia…

Surrendering to my misdeeds of all times…

Praying for forgiveness…

And then, I rose again…

Seeing her in in the light of my sun…

Feeling deep gratitude 🙏🏽

Grace 🙏🏽

Innocence 🙏🏽

Ahasveros

Resurrection

Pedraiva

Yesterday, I had my initiation into the next level of my being, meeting the toad medicine again together with the most powerful shaman I have worked with thus far.

A week ago I had a first ceremony that was… intense… beyond words…

It felt like exorcism!

In the integration the shaman described he saw me having been a Sufi healer in the 14th century who had a considerable following. I was healing through my voice and with my words. Also, he saw powerful blue light coming out of my hands and that they had a strong healing power. But, eventually, I would abuse my power and my followers turned against me. Interestingly an astrologer once told me that my calling is to be a metaphysical teacher, yet I prefer not to have a following… which, in fact, I never wanted but is, kinda, a paradox.

I told the shaman that the ceremony felt like an initiation but it was not completed.

“You need to ask for forgiveness for your wrongdoings.”

So we decided to close the process with another ceremony.

And then, my second one, yesterday… there is no words that could possibly describe that birth experience.

I kept releasing the pain and deep shit that weighted me down – accumulated for more than 700 years – through my heart with the sound A…

Slowly rising onto my feet…

Eventually rising strong…

Being enveloped in golden light…

Eventually the sound becoming a roar…

My physical body exploding into light…

As my inner sun rising…

All my cells radiating golden light…

Eventually spreading my wings…

Expanding into infinity…

While seeing my sun…

My creating of life…

The embodiment of pure love…

Intuitively I know what it means…

Being a sun…

Perceiving life through the heart…

Living truth through love…

Serving with my being…

Healing by being…

Serving by shining…

Returning from infinity, the shaman gave me his drum…

Closing the ceremony myself…

Drumming my own beat…

Collecting my gifts…

Being…

Eventually closing my initiation myself 🙏🏽

This morning I go to meditate with the sunrise at my favorite spot where I do so for almost a year…

At the sunrise, for the first time I see dolphins in the sea…

And then, due to a surreal occurrence, I “coincidently” see a tarot card that exactly mirrors my experience during the ceremony.

Not only did I stand there in such a manner at the pinnacle of my ascent, but the description of the card also describes with the downloads and insights I gained during the ceremony.

Yet, the sun did not merely linger behind me; it dwelled within and encompassed me, a radiant presence both inside and all around me.

Resurrection 🙏🏽

Ahasveros

Farewell

September 28th 2018, 23:46

What I see in you is much bigger than what people see. You are a creator of love, light, and life. You are a goddess that should be loved like one ☺️

Five years ago, I wrote this poem when you captured my heart.

14 days later, you said you wanted a child from me.

I have fulfilled your wish, yet your gratitude was to deny me.

I wasn’t good enough, neither for you nor your family, nor your society.

I don’t really understand what that means.

Your spiritual teacher told you, a child from a person with my heart is a true gift.

And, I believe, every father is worthy of being its child’s parent.

And also, which society am I not good enough for? Not good enough for the Wörthersee high-society 🤣

My ancestors were the kings of Iran ✌🏽

And I, personally, have accomplished more for humanity than most of the people you personally know.

The only crime I ever committed, was to lead you back into your heart once you wanted to deny me to witness our child’s birth.

By what right were you going to do that?

Your spiritual teacher has told you several times in my presence, that you treat OUR child as if she were YOURS alone.

I guess the inconvenient truths that she told were the reason you stopped visiting her.

And my perspective that I expressed and my witnessing of the abuse you experienced were the only threats I ever posed to you and the unhealthy dynamics in the system behind.

A system that disconnected you from your heart and made it blind.

We both know, what is hidden deep inside your heart.

You kept the crown, the whip, and the ring 😉

Five years… I’ve served your fears, traumas and projections long enough…

I am truly grateful that you showed me my biggest shadows and weaknesses.

I’m truly grateful that you forced me to realize my true potential.

I am grateful to you for giving birth to the Princess of Tabaristan 🙏🏽

Five years I have honored you as the goddess that is the mother of my firstborn.

I have loved and treated you like a goddess.

Five years I have hoped that your heart will be stronger than your fears.

I have gifted you my firstborn… the light of your life…

Farewell 🙏🏽

Ahasveros