Return 3.0

Tenerife Airport

Today and on this day a year ago I returned from La Gomera from a healing journey.

The last 365 days were quite intense 😉 And I got the opportunity to feel and see my deepest wounds.

You know… there is so much I could write about.

Yet, I‘ll just say the one thing that seems to be the most important learning for me:

I‘m neither my perception, nor my mind, nor my intellect, nor my past, nor childhood traumas nor my anger nor my pain! I am non of what I used to identify with or still might identify with!

I am…


Please Proceed to the Gate

The Atlantic Ocean

Thursday was a special day. Some things finally came to an end and a new gate opened.

It feels like some important things are shifting for me on a deep level.

And in a few moments I’ll be back to Gomera… when I left two months ago, I didn’t expect to be back so soon.

The timing is perfect. Working with a new medicine for the first time is usually a very special and profound experience. It’s like losing your virginity 😉

The gate is open. Boarding has started. Let’s see where this trip will take me to 😳😉😜



I live intensively… I love intensively,,,

And when I love intensively… I take off my masks…

And when I take off my masks… I make myself vulnerable…

And when I make myself vulnerable… I need to proceed with mindfulness…

But when I don’t proceed with mindfulness… I create the space to become deeply hurt…

And when I get deeply hurt… I use my sting…

And the moment I use my sting… my love has turned into poison…

And that poison is lethal even for the people I love most!

Yet, it is the nature of the scorpio to use his sting whenever he sees no way out… or when you step on him 😳


Hey Hermano!

When we first met I was 23. I had just graduated from university and was just about to start living the life I thought I had to. But then I met you 😉

Your path inspired me to live the life I love.

And then, 16 years later you suddenly reappeared in my life. You were still pursuing your dream while I had given up mine. And at that time I didn’t know what was soon to come up next – my separation that eventually led to my divorce.

During my darkest hours you supported me all the way through and although you had to leave Vienna for your work you delayed it and stayed longer just to be there for me…. Hermano, your support nurtured and saved me.

And with my recent challenges you did it once again 😉

You are a modern day wandering dervish, a healer and a humble pure soul.

You have inspired me and supported me over and over again. But most of all you showed me that living what you believe in is not a privilege… it’s a choice!

You think you owe me? Think again!




When I wrote Fate? I didn’t quite anticipate what life has in store for me.

Life always has other things in store then you expect… doesn’t it 😉

I was free to do and create whatever I wanted.

So I co-created… and now I will become the one thing I thought I would never be… I thought I never wanted to be…

Yet, unexpectedly this miracle of life fills my heart with great joy… life is the most beautiful gift that life could ever give me!

I will be father 😊


Those gifts least expected are the most precious ones 😜

Kambo Retreat

The Atlantic Ocean

Four weeks ago I arrived on the Canary Islands. The weeks before were a bit wild but as expected going on retreat was about the best thing I could do.

I love the work with Kambo. I mean what’s better then puking the hell out of your stomach 😜

With every purge layer by layer you leave behind some of your past… deep routed patterns, conditioning, trauma, etc.

Kambo is one of the most potent medicines for the body, mind and soul that I personally experienced.

So what did it do for me?

Well, not only that I found awareness about some of my ill-making patterns and was able to let them go. I experienced how strong my mind(fuck) really is. I saw THE light. I discovered the frequency of my heart.

Well let’s see what I’ll manifest next but first I’ll listen to the advice some of the great mystics gave in the past:

“If you believe to be enlightened, just spend a weekend with your family.”

I’m not enlightened but one thing I can say for sure:

One day I’ll look back to these 3 1/2 weeks and can tell how they shifted my life 😉


Making Love with Life

La Gomera

The moment my mind is quiet life is full of light.

With each inhale I take I inhale life.

With each exhale I create and in-spire.

I decide if I nourish myself with darkness or light.

In my last ceremony I experienced how enlightening life can be. It felt like I was making love to life…

I experienced how abundant with light life is 😊


Kambo Ceremony IX

Life’s a bitch… isn’t it?

It just won’t roll the way I want it to.

It’s just not the way I it could be…

Could be? Should be? Would be?

Everything would be perfect if only…

If? Only?

Yes, but…

Yes? But?!?

I want…

You want?

Well but…


Ahh, shut up… damn it… life’s a bitch 😉