Resurrection

Pedraiva

Yesterday, I had my initiation into the next level of my being, meeting the toad medicine again together with the most powerful shaman I have worked with thus far.

A week ago I had a first ceremony that was… intense… beyond words…

It felt like exorcism!

In the integration the shaman described he saw me having been a Sufi healer in the 14th century who had a considerable following. I was healing through my voice and with my words. Also, he saw powerful blue light coming out of my hands and that they had a strong healing power. But, eventually, I would abuse my power and my followers turned against me. Interestingly an astrologer once told me that my calling is to be a metaphysical teacher, yet I prefer not to have a following… which, in fact, I never wanted but is, kinda, a paradox.

I told the shaman that the ceremony felt like an initiation but it was not completed.

“You need to ask for forgiveness for your wrongdoings.”

So we decided to close the process with another ceremony.

And then, my second one, yesterday… there is no words that could possibly describe that birth experience.

I kept releasing the pain and deep shit that weighted me down – accumulated for more than 700 years – through my heart with the sound A…

Slowly rising onto my feet…

Eventually rising strong…

Being enveloped in golden light…

Eventually the sound becoming a roar…

My physical body exploding into light…

As my inner sun rising…

All my cells radiating golden light…

Eventually spreading my wings…

Expanding into infinity…

While seeing my sun…

My creating of life…

The pinnacle of us…

She is the embodiment of pure love…

The embodiment of the innocence of her mother…

Our Sun

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Intuitively I know what it means…

Being a sun…

Perceiving life through the heart…

Living truth through love…

Serving with my being…

Healing by being…

Serving by shining…

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Returning from infinity, the shaman gave me his drum…

Closing the ceremony myself…

Drumming my own beat…

Collecting my gifts…

Being…

Eventually closing my initiation myself 🙏🏽

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This morning I go to meditate with the sunrise at my favorite spot where I do so for almost a year…

At the sunrise, for the first time I see dolphins in the sea…

And then, due to a surreal occurrence, I “coincidently” see a tarot card that exactly mirrors my experience during the ceremony.

Not only did I stand there in such a manner at the pinnacle of my ascent, but the description of the card also aligns with the downloads and insights I gained during the ceremony.

Yet, the sun did not merely linger behind me; it dwelled within and encompassed me, a radiant presence both inside and all around me.

Resurrection 🙏🏽

Ahasveros