Saturday I did my fourth ritual for the transition into my new life. It was a grandmother ceremony including possibly my most powerful Kambo session yet, with two medicine men from the Huni Kuin tribe.
It was very intense and powerful. Most of all I realised how blessed I am in life with many things that “happened to me” and the people that are a major part of my life, i.e. my family, my child and her mother and my close friends.
I am truly blessed despite the traumas I have experienced in this lifetime – with experiencing the revolution in Iran as a baby and it’s aftermath as a child growing up with deeply traumatized parents as well as physical-, emotional- and sexual abuse and this deep level of racism against middle eastern men in Austria – I’ve experienced deeper shit than most of my peers experienced… and still, I am grateful.
I realised on a different level that my father is dying – possibly quite soon, hopefully he has some more time to enjoy his grandchild and his new home – but he is dying. When the psychic told me so at the beginning of September, I didn’t want to hear it. And now I can see that I have the opportunity to make true peace with him to fare him well. I hope he will make it to Spain so I can visit him there. Austria just doesn’t feel like the right place to make peace.
During the ceremony I made peace with many people on a deeper level and felt gratitude for who they are in my life and what they do and did for and to me. Now it’s time for me to move on.
And I do. I feel so welcome here in South Portugal since I arrived. With all the people I got to know. The way the people positively react towards me and the doors that open. And the energy, it’s so different. Austria still has this deeply underlying subtle Nazi energy and I can always feel it when I am there… especially when I am here in Portugal or in Greece. It’s so different to be here and I am blessed that I can be.
I’m on the brink of the next stage of my life now. In a way it means that I need to stop fooling myself about many things and start doing certain things that build me and my future. When do I want to start, if not now.
In a way I feel like I’ve grown up in this ceremony and this ritual prepared my consciousness to manifest the next stage of my life.
I’m Here, Now and ready!