Beyond Illusion

Up in the Sky

What a crazy journey.

First Belgrade… so much love.

Feeling like a second home.

Then I went to Niš for a business meeting that had popped up.

From there I thought it would be easy to get to Greece…

Well, I should have checked before assuming…

Eventually I did get there… with being drug checked for two hours at the border between Serbia and Bulgaria…

They though my homeopathic medicine were drugs.

Definitely they would serve as a perfect decoy.

And then, Delphi…

This magical portal…

Only this time, it was possibly the most busy day I could visit…

On my first visit, the gods granted me Delphi all for myself.

This time I experienced Delphi on Easter Saturday with Sunday being closed… it was beyond packed…

Making me humble for what I was allowed to experience six years earlier… alone…

Meditating on the only possible spot I found in my four visit a warden comes up to me:

“Excuse me sir, you have to leave here, it’s not allowed to sit here.”

“Please give me a moment… I’m not a tourist, I’m a meditator” I respond.

He looks at me “Almost no-one that comes here is. Most people come to see, not experience… not feel… not seek. Take your time a few more moments, but when I come back you must move on”

🙏🏽

On Monday I return the for second time.

The message I received was clear

Beyond Illusion

There is no time for illusions any longer…

No time for bullshit no longer…

Nobody said it would be easy 😉

Ahasveros

Insight?

Delphi

This is my fourth visit to Delphi.

One of the most powerful portals that I know…

And this visit was quite different than the other ones.

This time Realization and insights didn’t come as a big AHA.

It came as a subtle whisper telling me that I know everything I need to know. I keep having so many realizations and deep insights, yet, it is not the same as BEing.

As I always say, “It doesn’t matter who I think I am. It matters who I am.”

And definitely I can step up my game, simply by being what I know.

In recent years, I had so many realizations and went through so many deep processes.

While it made me understand many things, it also kinda made me somehow arrogant…

Sometimes ignorant…

Often too extrovert…

And it all keeps me from being…

Ahasveros

20:44

Niš

Arriving at Belgrade airport, I had that feeling I used to have when I arrived in Tehran around the 2010s and Greece in the early 2020s.

It felt like coming home although it is not my home… being invited to the stay with some very dear friends.

On Saturday I went to 20:44 – a Belgrade club – and although I am not a clubber my guides told me to go there to witness the initial event introducing Psytech as a new genre.

Arriving there I was welcomed with so much love… it really touched me!

Being invited to a wedding.

Being invited to another retreat.

And my friends Marko and a Maya couldn’t believe I really came just to join this event.

My work is rebirth…

And I came to witness this rebirth… on the non-Orthodox Easter weekend.

Next stop…

Delphi

On the Orthodox Easter weekend.

Ahasveros

Transition

Up in the sky

Sometimes everything changes suddenly and unexpectedly.

I thought I’d get old in Portugal…

But within five weeks, I went from:

“I cannot imagine to ever leave”

to

“Wow, that chapter is over now“

And it really seems to be.

Within the course of a week two people independently of each other told me to return to Austria.

Yeah… whatever…

Exchange Austria with the sun of the Algarve… no way…

Then, my car broke down – most likely a quick fix (just a tube), or a 2.5k one (the turbo).

I announced to everyone around me if it’s the turbo, it’s a sign.

Three days later also unexpectedly my landlady told me I need to leave the gipsy wagon I live in by the summer as she needs to return it.

Still at that point, I tried to fool myself.

Eventually, I received the message it was the turbo.

That moment I knew I couldn’t fool myself any longer.

Don’t misunderstand me, I can get a new car and find a new place to live, but for me, that’s too many signs to ignore.

So I consulted my guides and my guides were more than clear:

It’s time to step into full trust.

Trust the guides…

Trust the signs…

As my time in Portugal seems to be over now… that chapter closes…

A new chapter starts…

On A Trip Part V?!

Awkward Silence

Carinthia

So for quite a few months I haven’t been sharing what’s going on in my life.

And a lot has been going on.

I don’t know where to start…

Well, I guess there’s always a reason why I don’t share.

Often I don’t because, simply, something major happened and I don’t have time.

Sometimes, I guess, I don’t want to go into the reflective mode.

And often, I simply don’t know how to put things into words.

I guess the main thing is but I got to a point in my life, where it is hard to bullshit myself.

And still, my ego tries to do.

I know what to do and how I need to act and still, I don’t always follow what I know is right.

It’s not the case that I do any evil stuff, yet, I don’t always do what is best for raising my frequency.

We always have the choice to do the right thing or do something where we compromise ourselves.

Today I turned 47. Not being young any longer, however, not being too old yet.

Let’s see where I go from here…

Ahasveros

The Cleanse

Istanbul Airport

As it always is, things turn out to be different than expected…

What a journey we had…

After twelve long years…

Visiting multiple sacred Sufi sites…

Reuniting as brothers…

Back again on a roadtrip…

Every day…

A turkish bath for cleansing not only the body but especially the mind and spirit…

A saint for nourishing the light…

And many dhikrs to connect to the divine…

What a journey…

What a cleanse…

Where the Sun of Tabriz met the Prophet of Love…

Ya hagh

18 Years Ago….

Vienna Airport

… I promised my brother, we would one day do a pilgrimage together to the sacred site, where the Sun of Tabriz first met the Prophet of Love…

After 12 long years, we finally reunite to fulfill this promise…

Temple of Light

Pedralva

Saturday, I returned after 186 days back to Al Gharb.

The last few weeks were intense with my father’s cancer and me staying way longer in Vienna than it was healthy for me…

My brother Flow was so kind to welcome me with a magical ceremony at the temple we build in March…

To arrive… instantly…

Wow… what a ceremony!

I’m convinced, everyone who was present, hardly ever experienced anything like it…

First, it started slowly… for about the first hour I tried to cleanse my lungs by pushing the toxins out of it by – kinda – coughing.

Then I started toning to activate myself with my voice…

My body started to have some energetic releases while I was connecting to the moon…

And then, I gifted Flow the shaman drum I got him for his birthday…

He started playing it and then, Ben joined playing my drum…

My body started moving to the beat…

Dancing with the moon…

Dancing with the gods…

The dance was so intense I had to start using the full capacity of my lungs…

Turning into hyperventilation…

Truly cleansing my lungs…

Turning into a primal scream…

A scream that got stuck five months earlier…

Closing multiple circles with that scream…

And then, I feel to the ground…

Going through a rebirth process…

Some participants perhaps believed to witness someone literally dying…

While Flow was doing his magic on me…

To revive the sun in me..

And then…

I rose…

Bursting into laughter for minutes…

My vibrating voice was back…

Instantly!

Later, we sat at the fire and talked.

“Flow, the frequency you are capable of holding now is extremely high” I tell him while my voice if fully vibrating again “I’m back now… we can start to invite people and activate them… we’re ready now!”

“The frequency comes from the temple we’ve build… it is a temple of light!” he responds.

I nod…

“Let’s call it Temple of Light!”

Ahasveros

186 Days

Calanova Hills

Six months ago I left the Algarve… my safe space… the place every sun-rise is medicine for me… where every morning I become one with the sun…

What a trip…

I’m back on my way home…

The teachings:

Everything is in divine order…

In divine timing…

Nothing to want…

Just to be…

Expanding the be…

Free of control…

Everything is either

A sign…

A test…

Or a teaching…

There is no victim…

We are 100% responsible for what we experience in life…

100%!!!

There is no victim!

We are creators…

Creators not by doing…

Creators by being… 100% ourselves…

Accepting, what life offers…

In the Here…

The Now…

In divine timing…

In divine order…

Accepting, even the painful…

The dark…

The uncomfortable…

Being grateful…

For everything…

Ya hagh

Ahashveros

Where is the Trauma?

Vienna

After my intense experience in South America being robbed in an armed robbery and threatened to be killed by a shaman on the top of a mountain in the middle of a jungle, I felt like it’s time to experience some classical western trauma therapy. I continued not to be fully relaxed when I was walking on the street at night.

So, I was searching for a therapist who has spots available on short notice and knows Brainspotting and EMDR – two techniques that supposedly are the best for post traumatic stress syndrome.

I quickly found someone…

During the first session I told her what has happened…

The way she looked at me she thought I’m either making up this whole story or that I live a surreal life.

In the first session we worked with the armed robbery.

She found something but eventually said „The trauma is not very active anymore!“

Hmm…

Still, we did another session on it to make sure, if there wasn’t anything hidden in a deeper layer.

Nothing…

The third session we went into the scene with the shaman who wanted to kill Tien and me.

There was nothing…

One more session to go deeper…

Still, nothing…

„The traumas are not active any longer! You must have solved them before somehow or you are the most relaxed person I know.“

I vividly remembered the moment at Pyramid Festival – when I had my breakthrough on E-Clip.

I always say, dancing with the sun on psytrance is one of the most potent trauma therapies that I know and this experience underlines it once more.

Yeah, psytrance… it’s a strong medicine when you know how to use it as one!

So that trauma therapy ended and I was grateful for some other very valuable insights the therapist shared with me.

Also, I realized, that there is still another much deeper trauma to work on… but that’s for another time to do… for now, I need to become one with the sun of the Algarve again…

Ahasveros