Month: January 2023

In my latest interview about a month ago, one of the participants said at some point something like “Just like Ricky Gervais, you simply don’t care!”

This sentence made me think. In a way he truly nailed it.

I remember when I saw Denis Rodman in an interview a few years ago when he continuously repeated when being confronted with seemingly embarrassing facts “I don’t give a shit!” It made me realize how much shit I gave then about so many things.

The last couple of years, really have changed a lot inside of me. And since travelling in Portugal I really started not to care about so many things. So many things that previously seemed to be so important to me and that I feel now are part of the Austrian vibe.

E.g. it’s funny, how my speaker agent tried to make me a B-list celebrity in Austria and I started to seriously believe that it was something to aspire. Becoming a B-list celebrity for the price of losing my authenticity… ah… no thanks…

For real, I mean, for so many years I gave a shit about so many things.

When you do, then you are subject to blackmail… in so many respects.

And when I watched my interview when it was published, I realized: Yeah, I really don’t care… anymore…

This interview was the most authentic thing I shared in a long time.

I mean, really, I don’t care any longer what people think. If they think I became a hippie, with my look. Or a pseudo-guru with my tone. Or a conspiracy theorist, when I say, it is not possible to speak the truth anymore. Or a psycho with some of the things I do or did. Or think something like “Huh? Wasn’t he a futurist? Covid made him a hippie guru!”

I don’t care 🤣

It feels so good to be finally free. I really don’t care, what people think about me, if I share my truth, in interviews, social media, in court or in front of my friends and family.

Once you realize, you have much more to win when you share your own truth, are true to yourself and live your own truth you are either crazy or you are finally free 🤙🏽

vox

Lagos

What a year… really…

There is so many things I am grateful for:

My father still being alive.

My daughter seeking for being with me.

Her mother making the effort of trying to be the best mother she can be.

Us having direct dialogues again for the first time in 2 1/2 years and the peace it creates.

And eventually, after almost three years – I would never had thought that I would ever be grateful for that – for the person who chased me away from my family that I loved so much and the life I though would be my future on March 11th 2020… eventually leading me to start a new life in a new country this year… something that wouldn’t have been possible without her “intervention” and the unbearable pain it inflicted on me, so I had to leave the country to bear with it.

I’m grateful…

For the shaman that created “The Ring”.

For my new Persian family.

For the shaman that initiated me into becoming a warrior of the heart.

For Boom for being baptised Ahasveros.

For OZORA for dancing my sacred dance again.

For Koochooloo for her beauty and love.

For the Greek gods of initiating me into a sacred circle.

For the Turning Point in my life.

For the 50 people that came to my first public ceremony that I facilitated at the winter solstice in South Portugal.

Wow… what a year…

vox